the fan

the reason why i hate telling her a solution.

she was looking for 2 fans with princesses design since it'll be hot outside when we travel.

i told her it's not necessary. She brought it up to another level, telling me not to carry anything at all, just empty handed for the travel. i stopped talking immediately

was that even necessary? it was just a fan, or 2. there're gonna be other stuff we can use as a fan afterall.

this is just another repetition of the "rainy day during CNY" and she mentioned just cancel the whole trip because I told her usually it usually rain during the first day of CNY.

I was not allowed to mention that at all and somehow it angered her.

blog of life?

 where should i start now? let's see...

taking care of 2 toddlers aren't easy and everybody knows that. Hiring a sitter isn't necessary when there're people living under the same roof willing to help, it's way better than a baby sitter anyway. So we did help taking care of 1 toddler, that should make life easier and guess what? I get the all-of-you-won't-allow-me-to-take-care-of-the-baby feedback in return. The reason we did this was because having 1 mother taking care of 2 toddlers was tough and to make it worse, the mother wouldn't allow anybody else in the household to help except me, the husband, which kinda disabled me to do any other kind of work. 

Another thing happened today, i was just moving around the bed to feed the baby midnight and those movements on the bed woke her up and annoyed her. "you woke me up" "are you mad at me?"...those are coming out of her mouth.

I don't blog shit up, i usually forget about all of them and move on, trying to live a happier life. It's kind of forgiving and not to bring it up and make things worse in the future, so it's better to forget them....

but after all those thing happened and I was in the brink of giving up...I decided to jot stuff down this time.